jess.

one day, when death comes. will you regret?

2010-05-02T03:22:00.002+08:00

ok.i dont know whats wrong.
never good with words.
limited vocabulary.
just felt that way which the title suggest,

i dont like to have regrets.
i HATE shows that shows how regretful one will be,
especially when death is the cause of separation.
cause that is something never reversible.

the feeling is terrible.

whether to trust or not?

2009-11-22T03:37:00.002+08:00

i been wanting to blog this entry since that day.
that day when it happen.
a thursday i remembered.
that feeling really sucks.
i really was....
stumbled should be the word to describe.

sandy called.
seemed to know that something BAD.
literally BAD was gonna happen.
although expecting it.
but didnt know what was really gonna happen.

therefore still stumbled upon the situation.
although expecting it.
was sad i should say.
more than angry.
didnt feel accused.

was just speechless
didnt know what to say.
seriously, SPEECHLESS.

it was definitely harsh
harsh words.
harsh tone.

i really didnt know how should i react.

2009-10-28T03:14:00.002+08:00

hahaha...its been yet a long long time since i posted an entry....
like once again...always doing this once in a while...
hahaha...

just suddenly being random...
suddenly feel OLD...
like literally...
dont they always say...old people always like to reminisce the past?

hahaha...then i am definitely old mans....hahaha...
always like to reminisce the past...

was wondering around delta sports complex the day before...
suddenly all the memories of primary school days really came back...
those days where i would purposely walked the longer way home.
so that i can chat with my friends longer...

then as i walked past the field.the PE storeroom.the canteen.the pond area.
those days of such fond memories.
our laughter.
our sweat.
our fun.

hahaha...sounds dumb.
but i sure miss those days in KSPS.
hahaha...be it good or bad.
but they were definitely FUN. :)

hahaha...random jesslyn on the go again.
halfway through corporate accounting paper.
where everyone is supposed to be trying their utmost best to complete that paper.
i suddenly missed POLY life.
hahaha...the BIG group life.
maybe it is cause the grand hall in SIM looks like TP sports hall?

hahaha...but suddenly miss everyone.and those days.
those days of MAKING DECISIONS!
where to go?what to eat?what to do?
hahaha...those days at delphine house doing project!
LAGOON's dinner.

also, my other classmates.
hahaha..
my super no need to meet up project group.
abigail.layyi.
hahaha...
then
some sort awkward but.... group.
xueli yan shan irvin.

then meet the fun and daring people group.
sharon zhenli zhiwei angeline

hahahahahaha....to be able to talk about the good memories of school.
STC memories is one part never to be missed.hahaha
the 3 different MATHS teacher we had..
the endless "lectures" we had by various people.

that scene never seem to disappear.
CORLISS AND I "hi-5"-ing after MATHS REMEDIAL.
hahaha...

too many memories....
too many nice memories.... :)

2009-07-20T23:15:00.001+08:00

was it purely sparing a thought for me?or just worried?heh?

scary friday

2009-05-09T00:40:00.002+08:00

today as usual
friday
off
accompanied her
picked him up

then suddenly
realized
stuck in an
awkward situation

COLD WAR

confused
helpless

then i think
after that
ok!
after some
drama
in the carpark

fetch him back
tot happy ending
went back
sleep
sleep
ZzzZZZzz

out for dinner
thai express
weird
awkward
situation

he mood swing
i think
she so tired

i don't know

sometimes ok
sometimes not ok

he speaks with an arrow
"i heard you like people to be straightforward"
that incident mentioned
by her
HUH?
confused
wad did I do now?
honestly
at that moment
i was rather pissed
SIANsss i would say

next:
SERIOUS QUESTION
what kinda of people i don't like the most?

HUH?
wad with the question?
i answered
i think
talk le
then dont do
or something like
talk one do one

he said:;distinction answer
HUH?
asked that question back
he replied
people that suck up
cause of fame
cause of money

people who talk one do one
i don't know

can't figured that motive
of the question

next
asked me whether
i wanted to drive not

... ... ... ... ...

ok!its a happy ending :)

that incident

2009-05-09T00:17:00.002+08:00

that incident
the incident
honestly
it is one that
i don't want
don't wish
to recall

don't know
why the tears
just keep flowing
non-stop

no matter how
i want it to stop
it just couldn't

i felt stupid
and dumb
wasting my tears
on such incident

been trying to
figure the reason
why
everyone asked me
i really don't know

honestly no one
knew or seemed
to understand
how i felt

they probably
felt that
"what an ass
crying over nothing"

i really got no idea
WHY?
i seriously
want to know too

it just a feeling
a feeling that
i don't know
how to describe

i guess
it is a mixture
a combination
of factors

one
disappointment
two
tone
three
method of handling
or more?

i don't know
too sensitive
too stubborn
maybe?

i thought
i am doom
thought that
this incident
is gotta be
like so
awkward
to see them
again

actually
honestly
after that day
it REALLY wasn't
about not being
able to get the car

but
seems like
no one believe
for i didn't
had a valid
or say
acceptable
reason

i really don't know
what came over me

i guess
everyone will protect
themselves
and who they loved
MOST

for me
my friends
for her
him
maybe thats why
in her strong tone

i really don't wish
cause of this
i don't know
STUPID?? incident
spoiling our relationship
of so many years

not trying to be noble
but
this group of friends
are really an important
part of my current life

it is just not worth it.

i know
i tend to see things
very differently
from them

i really hope that
this difference
will not be
a factor
that spoils
our relationship.

but
really
i was upset
very very
upset

for now,
don't know how
seemed to
gain some sort
of enlightenment

hope it stay status quo
and really
don't wish
for anymore
major
minor
quarrels

too good to be true

2009-05-07T00:14:00.003+08:00

the wrong i did...
was the dinner...
dinner was unnecesaary...

the wrong i did...
was to be too happy too fast...

the wrong i did...
was to believe it...

the wrong i did...
not have the ability to own one...

the wrong i did...
the wrong i did...
i dont know...
i really don't know...

once i heard...
woman are made out of water...
i guess i am one of them...

a story

2009-04-29T02:56:00.002+08:00

long long time ago,
there was two girls who
were the best of friends
later on unknowingly
one of them became
really good with someone else
the other one
felt left out
felt robbed
she became real jealous
she hated that someone else
to the extreme core
she didnt like this feeling

but after sometime
she realize
how dumb
how foolish
how ignorant
how childish
she was...

she never want to be like that again...
but...

2008-06-10T01:30:00.006+08:00

yesterday was monday.
a brand new start of a week.
today is tuesday.
the second day of a new week,
it been long since i last posted.
laziness is my biggest problem.

wanted to left some sort of "evidence"
of my happy holiday trips.
redang & taipei
it was indeed an enjoyable holiday

redang.
at first,
a trip of uncertainty
in the end,
a trip of happiness

uncertain whether i could
enjoy myself throughly
not feel left out
feel comfortable

met them at golden mile at 930
went toilet and bought some stuff
from the mama shop there
where sharon "make fun" of the india auntie

board the coach
left around 1030
met an "china" auntie
who was on the same coach
on the way to redang herself
BRAVE!

crossed the customs
in the middle of the nite
not exactly empty
i dont know why
but i always the last one.
my passport just refused to be read,
ARGH!
eveyone is done waiting for me
STRESS!
" .... ..... ..... "

then at the malaysian side
something happen again.
i seriously didnt understand
what the guy was saying
although he might have repeated it
like maybe 5 times
then finally i managed to catch something
he felt that my passport photo
didnt look like me....
DOTS!
told me and written on my passport
CHANGE PHOTO
when i get back
ARGH!
to add on....
someone has to say
the photo is my sister
ARGH!

to be continued... ...

04 MARCH 08

2008-03-05T11:15:00.003+08:00

04 march 08
woke up pretty early
as compared to
wad time i slept
three plus am
woke up cause of cai
finished driving
needed to find some company
came my house
updated my cupboard
with her face
obviously
went out for lunch
great world food junction
mee pok dry for her
korean bbq for me
cai bought fruits
that was super sour
went to walk around to shop for
jonathan tay's pressie
walk and walk...
abit diffcult to buy
then to no avail
went arcade
played air hockey
so embarassing CAN!
didnt placed the "thing" nicely
before hitting
so it flew
and flew
and flew
for some distance
OOPS!*
hahahahaha.
then same incident
second time...
this time it didnt fly..
it hit cai finger
oops ooops
hahaha....
played basket ball
won her by 1 point
hahaha....
then drive initial d
lost
but she learning manual driving
good excuse heh?
then went work
phyllis told me no replacement
argh!!
then told them where i wanted to go
of course
sandy tried dis encouraging me
hahaha
but to no avail
hahaha...
but luckily they were nice
didnt react as bad as wad i tot would be
think hard think hard
how how how?
finally a saviour!
christine free to work!yeah!
saviour!
pack stock
serve customer
keyed stocks
on and on
then phyllis asked me to work an hour earlier today
then finally plucked up that courage
to tell her bout APRIL...
haix....feel so bad....
haix.....
then came home...
usual routine
watch show
see taiwan's map
hahaha...
talked to kailin
she actually called me!
hahaha...
but of course there was a main topic
ahem*ahem
then watch show
then sleep!
-end

LATEST!

2008-03-04T01:11:00.002+08:00

just received an OMG news
happy!
excited!
super happy!
haha.
they are coming to SINGAPORE
南风瑾
南风彩
南风麟
南风影
wahahahaha!
going crazy le.
suddenly felt so bad
guilty.
contradicting feelings.
had to cancel work
which i agreed today
ahhhhh!!!
happy
guilty
happy
guility
ahhhhhhh!!!
plus confusion!
ahhhh!!

03 MARCH 08

2008-03-04T00:11:00.002+08:00

03 march 2008
woke up
rush for work
late for work
worked
finished work
met
kailin
yeow hong
corliss
went recruit express
confusion
more confusion
more and more confusion
went plaza singapura
eat mos burger for dinner
played basketball
played drum
so fun...
went home
watched zhong ji yi jia
watching spop now
sleeping soon...
but still confused!
-end

02 MARCH 08

2008-03-04T00:06:00.002+08:00

02 march 2008
fell asleep at my com
woke up at 2pm
watched leap years
analyze the way to yangmingshan
found a website
started to watch
zhong ji yi jia
talked to cai
fell asleep
-end

quote from the leap years
concidence is god's way of remaining anonymous*

01 MARCH 08

2008-03-01T23:53:00.004+08:00

01 MARCH 08
slept at seven
confirmed booking at eleven
12 may - 16 may 08
taipei
work
met choonying & boyfriend
"gossip"
changed blogskin
updating blog
fell asleep.

2007-04-07T21:03:00.000+08:00

[终极一班]
*人最重要就是讲信用
*朋友有难就一定挺

KO 1 -
KO 2 -
KO 3 -
KO 4 -

2007-03-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

angry angry
damn angry
so fustrated
all the damn problems
all the electrical problems
the laptop
the router
and the best part no one can lend a helping hand.
just suddenly feel that no one is dependable..
the best is to depend on urself...

2007-03-04T23:11:00.000+08:00

haha...
seemed to be able to predict when i will fall ill...
hahaha...took off....
wanted to go for autograph session...
end up fell ill...
but luckily managed to make it...

still had abit of headache..
still not feeling very well..
hahaha...
but insisted on going down...
hahaha.

came up with another two weird logics
today after an autograph session
one: if u wan to learn how to be vulgar...
go for autograph sessions...the people there is like
omg!crazy i think...
just keep pushing...and
the guys are like...omg!
just keep pushing...
like zhang shao han is leaving now or wad..
i and delphine already holding on to each other le...
still refused to give way...
still purposely squeeze in...
OMG!
terrible plus horrible...
then one guy behind me
keep pushing
and pushing
and pushing
and pushing
so pissed!
even on stage already.

second logic: wan to check whether a guy is a gentleman...
see how he reacts in the squeezy que of an autograph session...

the fans just keep pushing and pushing...non stop...
dont even allow anyone to walk...

haix....terrible...

but luckily the happier thing is that got her autograph...hmmm..

then went on shopping...
bought so much food home..
cream puffs...strudels...
hahaha.

ok thats all...off to watch vcd already!*

2007-03-04T15:02:00.000+08:00

two days never post le.
hmmm...
fell ill yesterday.
was freezing at paragon at work.
was dreaming.*haha*
hmmm...
the day before.
wad was i doin?
memory freeze le...

2007-03-02T03:07:00.001+08:00

haha...look at the time now!
its 3 plus in the morning...
and i just reached home!
woah!hahaha...
well usual stuff today...
went work...
but...met up with my year one friends today!
happie joyous experience i should say...haha
meet up with delphine first..
but she was late!
went to eat at mos burger myself...
orchard's emerald mos burger is like infested with small flies or wat..
keep having so many small flies flying around...
the thought of it make me itchy le...
nvm about that...
tried the clothing i wanted to buy..
but really look too weird on me le....
abit dejected...hahahhaa
but save money.!
then met up with choonying fendy and jiang at city hall
suggested kbox...wentkbox...after much 'discussions'
went kbox!
yeah wanted to sing kbox so long le
although i know i wu yin bu quan
but still....hahaha
fendy left at 10...delphine another hour later
left 3 of us...hahaha...
we singed till 2.30am!
hahaha...quite fun la...
well just wanted to thank them for this wonderful nite..
thou they might not see this!
thanks guys!

ok thats all of the day...
time to ZzZZZz le! nite*morning i mean....heehee

2007-03-01T00:46:00.000+08:00

today the last day of feb!
also the last day of exams!
yeah!!hahaha.
not sure wad kinda of grades i will get
but hopefully i will pass!*cross fingers*
hmm...
today abit sian...
didnt really had anyone to share my joy with
haix...my close friends all busy...
well i guess that wad happens when
everyone have their own life...
seems to be getting better at understanding that logic...
but luckily had xueli to accompany me...
hahaha...went window shopping with me!
although the both of us abit de too sian
but really thankful for her company if not
i would really be a wondering soul in town today
thanks!although she will not see it.
hahaha...
didnt really had a good day...
didnt get to buy wad i wanted..
all the vcds and cds out of stock!
ahh!!
haha...but saw something i like today again...
heehee...should i get it ? still wondering...hahaha
today rented a new show...wedding.haha...seems quite nice...
haha...
raining the whole nite...so cold...brr!hahaha

2007-02-26T22:42:00.000+08:00

finally after so many months.
changed my blogskin and also updated.

yesterday was club and resort examination.
so scared can.
finally its over.
one paper down.
one last one to go.
jia you!ping le!
hope i need not take supp paper!
[i dont wan!]
haha.

now trying hard to study for the last paper - travel and leisure
jia you jia you jia you!*

專屬天使

2007-02-26T00:50:00.001+08:00

my favourite song!

專屬天使

我不會怪你對我的偽裝
天使在人間是該藏好翅膀
人們愚蠢魯莽而你纖細善良
怎能讓你為了我被碰傷

小小的手掌厚厚的溫暖
你總能平復我不安的夜晚
不敢想的夢想透過你的眼光
我才看見它原來在前方

沒有誰能把你搶離我身旁
你是我的專屬天使唯我能獨占
沒有誰能取代你在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使我哪裏還需要別的願望

小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也會像你一樣飛翔
最想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保護笑容儘管燦爛

沒有誰能把你搶離我身旁
你是我的專屬天使唯我能獨占
沒有誰能取代你在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使我哪裏還需要別的願望

哦要不是你出現我一定還在沉睡
喔絕望的以為生命只有黑夜～

沒有誰能把你搶離我身旁
你是我的專屬天使唯我能獨占
沒有誰能取代你在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使我哪裏還需要別的願望
哦～嗚～

2007-02-25T23:49:00.000+08:00

haha.been a long long time since i last update this blog.almost like a dead blog le.haha.been wanting to come and update for quite sometime le.but you xin wu li...hahaha."
as for tonite...managed to find that li to come online and update it finally...haha.
although now studying for exams shouldnt be do this updating now...but just wanted to blog this tonite
TONITE IS SUCH A STARRY NITE!

2006-05-16T00:06:00.000+08:00

suddenly log in to friendster.took a look at friends' pictures.came across pauline's and shan's profile.this feeling suddenly came to me.guilty.felt pretty guilty now.hav i really neglected them since after sec 2?i think i did.tot of the msn conversation i once had with pauline.that conversation really hurt me alot.ever since we change class after sec 2..pauline went overseas...shan was in another class...i got close to siyun kailin and fiona...i seemed to hav neglected them...to put in a nicer way...we all had our own life to led...i dont really know how the both of them felt bou the life then but i must admit mine life then was pretty fun...suddenly...i feel really guilty and regretful i should put it...that we were longer as close as before.but i know it is impossible to turn back time. but i would really like to say to pauline shan if they ever chance upon this...i really hope that we will always remains as friends!pauline.when u come back.we are not goin out cause of goin out.but i would really wan to hang out with u a friend of mine.catchin up with u.since we haven seen each other for a long time.

2006-04-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

hate school.hate school.hate school.hate school.hate school.hate school.hate school.hate school.
i really hate school now.before that i probably dread goin to school only.cause one.its damn damn far.two. i know hardly anyone.got abit happier that i know that joy was in the same class as me.and for mine first cds i was in the same class as delphine.i tot it wasnt that bad after all maybe.at least i was lucky that i knew someone in there.unlike maybe delphine.brandon.or fendy.at this point of time.i can only say that i really hate goin school.thanks to them.mine second cds was schedule in a way that i have 2 hours of break on monday and 3 hours of break on thursday.wad this crap!i stayed like on the other side of school.cant they just adjust mine schedule abit?i might be abit selfish by askin to be in the same class as delphine.probably that was for selfish reasons.i might be able to understand that.at least.but the point now i wasnt askin for more.all i wanted was a change of lecture maybe?at least i have a 4 hours break on monday and thats it.and i do not have to waste mine time in school.i already dreaded goin to school.and now i have to spend 5 hours of break in school on mine own.thats pratically wantin mine life.i really cannot understand why cant they try to understand mine stand while i try to understand their point of view too?why isnt that i hav to understand their point of view and accept their point of view.i hate to be alone!and they just have to do this to me.this arrangement was also partially due to her.if she had written down mine preferable time.this would not had happen.wonder if this was wad fate has arrange for me.guess i just hav to be stuck with this timetable for a sem.and see how it goes...
hate school.hate school.hate school.hate school.hate school.hate school.hate school.hate school.

2006-02-01T01:02:00.000+08:00

my other fav pic.haha.nice nice?haha.at chalet too.hmm pretty obvious i guess?haha.

2006-02-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

one of mine fav pics.heehee.*at our chalet.on the 5th or 6th or 7th of nov?oopssie forgot.!haha.

2006-02-01T00:57:00.000+08:00

haha.this pic i might look abit spastic.haha.but but.it was pretty fun thou.haha.taken at marina square toilet.haha.the santa hats.[i bought it!for almost everyone.haha.]after eatin at changing appetite.haha.takin abit of our own sweet time in the toilet with yh[kailin bf] and xaiver[fiona bf] waiting outside.heez*haha.*23rd dec 2005-

2006-02-01T00:55:00.000+08:00

i tot this neoprint was quite nice.heehee*haha.we took it on 23rd dec!two couples together with siyun and me.haha.*we exchanged pressies that nite!haha*

2006-02-01T00:49:00.000+08:00

haha.one of mine most sucessful gathering that i organize with the help of many.heez*the rest left le.forgot to take pics with the rest.*oops*guess where we were?haha.TCC!haha.the one at milenia walk?[haha.dont know howta spell]haha.*winkz*thanks to all my friends that turn up.!including those not in the pics.

2006-01-17T22:06:00.000+08:00

mmm..in a pretty depressed mood recently i guess?or should say it has been frequenting me more often these few months?i dunno wats the cause.just very easily irrtatied.well.talk bad about so many people.hmm...feel bad thou..but cant stopped it.haix.i'm sorry to those!well there is something in me that i feel like sayin but dont wish to talk now.hmm...realised that i really hate to lose!hate to be snatched off something too?i think?just realised that ***actually just totally irritated me again today!although its a small matter but....i just mind it so much...over that thing...i asked for it first then ***had to snatch it!*****!ren!thats all i cant say...hmmm.i dont know.!still feel pretty irritated bout it.!how?haix....

2006-01-14T03:23:00.000+08:00

haha.cant believed it that i am actually bloggin now?at this time of 3am?haha.cause i am still studyin for my accounts test!ahh!!its about to drive me crazy!driving me up the wall.all the cash flow statments.accountin for companies!knew nothing about it at first.ahh!!just got this sudden urge of bloggin.haha.at 3am?!?haha.well hope that i will do pretty well for this test!hopefully!haha.i gtg to continue to drive myself up de wall le.haha.
-[spent my friday nite studyin accounts, how great can it get?!?]haha.oh btw thanks to fendy.if he happens to be here?droppin by?haha.thanks for the treat!a great show!haha.*winkz*

理想情人.*

2005-10-29T00:12:00.000+08:00

穿上洋装看着手表
时间快到心碰碰的跳
和你的第一次约会来临了

金色的阳光洒满人行道
换了新唇膏把头发弄好
要你看到我的好

喜欢看你走路充满自信
说话时候你的专注眼神
温柔的表情笑容里的天真
我相信找不到有比你更好的人

你心里理想情人是几分
是否也会有我的份
好想知道你的100分
会给怎样的人

亲爱的你不要再陌生
增加我戏份
我想问亲爱的你把感情升等
朋友变成情人
可不可以告诉我标准
不要让我一直等

听着那时间滴答的走
对街的你在点头
好像一个梦渐渐走到我前头

好想知道你的100分
会给怎样的人
亲爱的你不要再陌生
增加我戏份

我想问亲爱的你把感情升等
朋友变成情人
可不可以告诉我标准
不要让我一直等

2005-10-25T19:05:00.000+08:00

yeah!i can buy my mickey shirt!haha.

2005-10-21T02:31:00.000+08:00

一个个地为爱离去,一个为离开而离开,我们大家还是好朋友吗?
一起欢乐过的日子,
一起疯过的日子,
一起担心过的日子,
一起伤心的日子,
这一切的一切变成了回忆.

2005-09-01T23:06:00.000+08:00

haha.my star collection!from my poly friends thanks a dozen lo!*winkz*

my sunflower.haha.so happy.previous years didnt receive it.but this year i received two!

thanks guys!

the best written wishes by my best buddies.thanks!*winkz*

haha.this box by my best buddies consists of their sincerity.our friendship.and my fav stuff!haha.wonderin wats inside the box?haha.its a mystery.haha.

Thanks to all my friends for their effort in buyin these gifts!really appreciated it alot.thanks esp to [kailin.yeow hong] and [choonying.fendy.yu jiang.chuan.]and [syun]for makin that disc of memories of the PAST.

2005-08-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

haha.its been a long long time i have updated this blog of mine.haha.another few minutes i would be seventeen le!haha.many things hav happen between this one and half months that i havent been bloggin.times really flies.i was just preparin for mid-sem test.now the final exams.haha.reemember always meetin at city hall area to study.pacific cafe.hagen diaz.haha.then eatin at esplanade.enjoyin nite view at esplanade.playin pool.celebratin birthdays.yu jiang.corliss.chris.
140705-tom chong.celebrated at marina south.treated us to steamboat cum bbq.hm.that week everyone was rushin csa project.haha.the 3 of us had to go and buy his pressie the day before.got him a balloon.a shirt.[that made us walk so far to get it.due to his size.*oops*haha].a bottle of fish sauce.a cake.whipped cream.haha.had an enjoyable nite.started off with bowlin.the challenge between the girls and guys.guess who won?haha.of course the girls lo.haha.brandon and fendy came late.then they started to kick the bowling ball.haha.*pain*haha.then started eating.fendy and i had to wash the crab.i did the washin.he chopped the crabs.haha.went back to eat the food that chef joseph cooked.haha.live prawns - the guys were actually scared of them.delphine tot it was so cruel to cook and eat them but instead she ate the most.haha.then smashed whipped cream on yu-jiang face.haha.then the new shirt came in handy.haha.then we went on to play arcade.haha.inital D/daytona/etc.haha.had a wonderful nite.haha.the next day somemore had to choose cds.discuss online.talk on the phone with choon ying.chuan.fendy.till bout 6am?haha.woke up at 930.woke everyone else up.to choose.all our last choice is the colours and combination thingy.haha.
16-07-05.corliss birthday.meet early in the morning.planned to go cyclin at east coast.ate at mac for breakfast.[jeramy?he was also around.]took the bus down to east coast.it was so crowded.haha.[straits time.anivesary.]decided to go play bowling first then.haha.forgot who won.but i know that kailin was so taico.haha.cause she 'wash drain' the machine consider it as a strike.?haha.but we had great fun.then twinkle star hadnt come.corliss was screamin.haha.wondering why he took 2-3 hours to reach.haha.then we rented our bikes.fiona's friend, lenny.reached.fiona went to pick him on the bike.haha.he happen to be tianshuo.dennis.jeramy ex-prischool classmates?well first impression wasnt good.felt that he wasnt nice.likes to act pro.just didnt like him.hmmm.well.just kept quiet.we cycled all the way to the end of east coast.then decided to turn back when we reach the roads.the place there was peaceful.nice.as if we were in aust?haha.then we stopped at a place.where i think the sewage were.haha.started taking pics.haha.they went to collect food.then we went to parkway to buy some stuff.haha.came back.started to bbq.hui and freda came.haha.with the cake.haha.cake melted.started to eat the cake itself.not cut.but the whole cake passin round to be eaten.haha.many chicken wings was left.food was left.haix.made everyone finish it up.haha.everyone was so full.clear up then went home lo.haha...
above was an example of happy incident.we had a 'war'.started of with the ob project.argued.made a scene in school.but till now i dont think i did anything wrong.i did not start it.tried solving it.did all i could.but the other party was too stubborn or shld i say refused to give in.brainleess.cant stand her.i did not like her at first.but i did not do anything.she made herself sound like a victim that we were all bullyin her.but in actual fact.we did not.[although i did not like her.]she also seems to make it sound so noble.that she did so many things to make us like her but to no avail.haix.did not know such person exsists on earth.we still do not talk to each other.just simply cant stand the sight of her.seriously.not bias or anything.
after that.we been rushing rushing rushing for our project as dateline was nearing.almost everyday camping at delphine house.haix.in the end.we were all so tired that week.esp the dateline day.haha.went home slept till 0530am.haha.woke up.watch shows.eat sleep.after ob.rushed other projects.econs.comm skills.wosh!its over.haha*phew*
180805-chris birthday.went to eat sakae sushi.we eat alot.haha.the plates were towering.haha.bought a cake.put on the relighting candles.chris look abit dumb.could not blow the candles off.haha.we made the whole place so smoky.*oops*.no one wanted to eat the cake.then felt it would be a waste not eating.they started eating with chopsticks.haha.bought her a dustbin.with lollies inside.a dog shirt.addidog for her dog.bingo i think.haha.then bought her a dog cushion and a blue rose.haha.that day we took neoprint too.haha.nice picx.haha.then went off shoppin for joseph pressie for his gf.haha....
after that it was project again...comm skills.finished it up quite fast.haha.then everyone started to study for exams lo le.haha.well this was the major events that happen in the last one month and so.haha.well its also one of the last chapters to my sixteen year old life.haha.i would be seventeen soon.haha.*winkz*

2005-07-07T02:20:00.000+08:00

haha.it has been a long time since i blog anything here.hmmm.since 21st.well must say thank you to clara for always inviting me to your birthday party.bbq-ed chicken wings, 1kg of prawns ,some hotdogs and crabmeat.haha.it just feels good to cook for someone ba?.1 kg of prawns mostly finished by hui2 and kailin.well the main reason is that there was someone there to peel for them.haha.bought her a blackmailer game as present.they wanted to play.the game was about settin up cameras everywhere to take pictures of people and sendin them blackmails.haha.guess who won the game?haha.of course it me wor.haha.der!leader of the ambush squad.then wad happen after clara's birthday.oh!arie return.haha.we really went to 'fetch' him or shld i say eat macs at changi airport.haha.well...it just mircale.i wonder.cause arie is fiona's friends.but we seem to be on pretty good terms with him.fate i guess?haha.needed to reach school at 0830.haix was late.kailin was also late for school.supposed to arrange to watch movie in the nite.then waited for his call till everyone sian le.haha.then didn't watched.then it was friday.my day!went out with tp friends.choon ying, delphine and cassandra.haha.went to eat kenny rogers at east coast then bowling.haha.my first score was 80+i think.haha.then the second time the machine gave me 2 strikes.haha.then after bowlin choon ying and delphine went blading.haha.then we stop at the seafood centre there.haha..well i walked.haha.help to hold them at parts.stop at the breakwater.nice background.haha.started takin pictures.so relaxin with the sky and sea behind u.siyun was there too but didn't see her lo.hmmm.then went out with kailin to suntec area later in the night.haha.then bought sun block for tmr outing.haha.don't wanna peel so much.haha.bet with arie who was late.if he was he would have to do something that we say.haha.i was actually late then i act blur with the rest of the grp.haha.then ate at macs.haha.the started to play with food.dumb arie added salt into my maple syrup.hmm..then kailin started to take revenge for him.his big breakfast is almost ruined.haha.salt pepper.u named it the big breakfast meal have it.haha.poor thing.haha.then went to siloso beach.hmm..played volleyball for a while.haha.then rain came.then hide under shelter.then sand storm.haha*ouch*so pain the sand.haha.then started pushin arie out of the shelter.then ran after the beach train barefooted.*ouch*was a rather painful morning i shld say.haha.well went to palawean beach.*spellin*haha.then no more rain.true enough i cannot be at siloso sure rain de.haha.then nothing to do.bought food, garbabge bags.hehe.and started slackin.took us a lot of effort to persuade arie to let us burry him.haha.started burryin.then after that.sun block time!gave arie some.then guess what the first thing he did was to apply it on his face!haha.then realised that he look like MJ.haha.so funny.then the girls suntan in the sun.i fell asleep.back was charcoal.haha.then woke up started to eat.haha.was slacking around the whole afternoon.haha.took some pictures.haha.before we left.started to write stuff on the sand and takin pictures.haha.then we left to bath.haha.*i didn't*haha.the guys waited for an hour a so ba.haha.then we left to go marina south for steamboat.haha.kailin's tkd friends were there too.haha.then eat some food.then left wantin to watch the movie arie owe us.haha.debatin on what to watch.haha.finally decided great world.haha.ran for the 970 across the road.haha.so funny.then reach great world take so long to decide.then finally watch mr and mrs smith at 0030.then sat at mac to wait for time to pass.haha.saw some 'show' before the real show even started.haha.a guy open the mac door.slammed it back.then the whole piece of glass became frosted glass.haha.arie witnessed everything.haha.he was on his way back from home.haha.then went up to watch show.haha.then surprisely saw xuan ming.haha.he not surprised.saw me before i did.haha.but was rather happy to see friends.haha.then watched the show.quite interestin but was too tired.fall asleep at parts.haha.came out saw him collecting rubbish.haha.then went off hurrily.haha.then me and siyun wanted to walk home.then arie send his friend back.then arie decided to send all of us back on cab.yeah!no walkin.haha.

2005-06-21T01:36:00.000+08:00

a thought i shld put it that i drew from clara birthday party.
really not a matter of desperate,but just wondering when will my prince charming or mr right appear.u must be wonderin why i had such a thought?haha.cause imagine u goin to a party with everyone attached to their boyfriends.they always having someone there who will always be there willingly to serve u and to shell the prawns for u.someone who will send u back home if the party was ending late.hmm...being loved is a kinda of happiness i guess.
lets see.among the grp who are 幸福小女人

kailin-'daddy'
hui hui-matthew
clara-her bf.not sure what name
corliss-ahem*cannot say.but start with d.*not stable yet*
fiona- nv lack of guys.*oops*
only left me and siyun lo.hmmm....
*oops*siyun says she not alone.kk.so left with me alone only.yep.*sobsob*

maybe, 幸福是不能急的.

2005-06-13T23:57:00.002+08:00

haha.finally?i am here to blog.okok.maybe no ones cares.well it has been like maybe since a month ago i haven blog something here?well as u know the lazy me.yep.well the past mth have been rather eventful i guess i shld put it this way.well.siyun started school on the 23rd of april.fiona.corliss.me started one mth later.23 may.kailin and yeow hong another week later.30th may.hmmm.the wonderful thing was that all of us are everywhere.well maybe it was fate.refused to put us together.well maybe to some.it might be something good.well definitely not too good for me.hated to be in a new environment.hate to make new friends.or i shld say scared?hmmm.not too sure.managed to survive thru orientation.19th and 20th.i will remember...classmates were pretty friendly and pleasant people.my class was small compared to sec school.hmmm.24 people?17 girls.7 guys.haha.*girl power*haha.well i am definitely not one that is sociable.thus was quiet the whole time.haha.orientation was pretty ok thou.haha.but i will remember...on that friday.dressed in my 'banana' business shirt with fbt shorts.at bugis.waited for kailin and yeow hong.wah!first time wor.haha.well.waited for them maybe like er...1 hr?okok 45 mins?hmmm..watever it is.okok.well they like superstar ye.i waited for them pretty long rite?hmm..wah i see them only for 5mins ye.superstar rite?haha.hmmm...shldn't talk bout recent stuff.talk something before school starts...well after usual..went out everyday.went east coast?town?monstercue?bugis?suntec?esplanade?hmm.poool shoppin everyday.haha.then siyun started school.continued with the regular routine without siyun almost all the time.haha.well wat else can i say bout her?haha.wat needs to be said have been said le.she keeps as memories.she wishes to move on with life.well...wat can i do bout it?laugh over it?probably that the only way.no other ways can change her mind.it is so hard just to ask her out.well maybe i just have many superstars as friends.i am just a commoner.a person that always loves to be out.well talk bout all these another time.let just talk bout events happening between this 2 mths.haha.pool?cycling and rollerblading at east coast?shoppin?hmmm.oh ya btw great singapore sales has started!wohooo..!!haha*wat else did we do?er running around sp and np?hmmm.wat else?went kbox with poly friends on er...1st june i guess?haha.forgot le.haha.it was rather fun too.then went for jj school concert.haha.horrible que-ing system.haha.manage to get a pretty good of view of him thou.haha.so cute!haha.then went to k-ster with corliss.fiona.siyun.kailin and yeow hong.haha.and the waiter there insisting that we shld order our drinks.haha.we were in such good unity.answered him no!haha.then we sang so many songs.started with a tuo diao.and ended with a tuo diao.haha.it was rather fun.haha.then we sang so loudly like for some songs.haha.only remember wu suo wei.haha!*fun*haha.well i will asked them out cause was lookin at neoprints the night before.haha.remember those times together of joy and fun.haha.oh ya the 5of us took a neoprint on 050505?haha.so fun.and took a neoprint with shan.yeow hong.siyun.took another neoprint on one sunday.met xiaoqi.ruby.siyun.haha.then...oh ya saturday 110605.the day of kster and one day after jj concert.went ngee ann city to meet delphine.haha.went to see the yess933 thingy...haha.saw jj.again!ahh!!so cute.haha.corliss and siyun saw him too.we saw energy.tanya.f.i.r.ah sang.haha.then wad else did i do?hmmm.forgot le.guess that was wad i have been doin for the past mth.haha.*winkz*promise will update soon again.[if anyone really bothers].oh oh ya!forgot something.how can i actually forget something so impt.Fiona's birthday.my friend.haha.made a 1000 piece winnie the pooh puzzle for her wor.took a lot of time and effort.hope that she will like it.bought her a fav princess balloon decorated with many other plain balloons.and got her the princess shirt too.haha.not seeing her for a week or so.she seems to have shrink?haha.she so 'adorable' and huggable.haha.went play pool at monstercue then surprise her with a muffin and a cake haha.and her balloons.haha.took plenty of photos outside monstercue.one of them was with uncle wor.haha.then all of us went home first.siyun kl and yh came over.then corliss went back with fiona.wantin to come back to take the puzzle for her.hmmm.haha.then kl and yh went back to kl house cause they too hot.wanted to change and shower.so me siyun stayed at my house.they took a hundred years or i shld say 1000 years to get prepared.hmm.then siyun had to entertain my auntie.haha.*opps*thanks wor.haha.then finally we reached fiona hs.on the way we were talkin.talkin bout my sad stuff.hmm.friendship being so fragile.haix.we wanted to slack more in fiona's room but couldn't.her mother keep on callin us to start the fire and *blah*blah*blah*blah*watever*then we eat what we bbq.haha.i finally found my forte i shld say.bbq-ing chicken wings.haha.love to serve people and please them dunno why.haha.but then it was great joy to hear from people eating the chicken wings that u bbq-ed, that it was good and delicious.haha.*winkz* *happy*haha.then we started to eat the table that fiona 'setted up'started to eat.haha.with 'beautiful music' accompanyin.haha.then the beehoon was rather hard or i shld say they insisted on indivdualilty.haha.then suddenly the beautiful music came out with tuo diao.haha.yh and siyun started singing.omg!yh actually is singing.haha.*mean*haha.but it was damn hilarious!haha.laugh non-stop.haha.damn funny!

2005-05-05T11:47:00.000+08:00

haha.been a long time since i updated it...been too tired and sian to type.haha.but then for the past few weeks.been goin out with my friends.haha.realised something.monstercue seems to be our second home.haha.been goin there almost everyday.haha.been fun.all our memories were there.i guess probably that might be the place whereby all of us can meet again next time.
030505-haha.been losin in pool.haha.fiona went back then played double.kept losing.then i team with my 'daddy'.haha.he hit the black ball into the wrong hole.argh!don't wanna listen to me lo.haha.then so angry then the 3 of us.[corliss.me.kailin.]use chalk to chomp on his face.haha.like he kena rape like that.haha.*winkz*funny....
040505-corliss used to have many theme songs.haha.this time round.hers was the chinese version of twinkle twinkle little stars.haha.kept makin fun of her and tian shuo.haha.although she kept on sayin that he and he has decided to remain as good friends.but i still think that tian shuo still like her.haha.and someday they will end up together.haha.*winkz*[hopes corliss don't kill me if she reads this.]haha.yesterday started off with watchin movie early in the morning.me.corliss.hui watched divergence.fiona.weilun.and mr and mrs teo watched infection.haha.at 10+haha.early?haha.then fiona went off with weilun to cycle and carriage to give the key.then we had nth much to do.when to istana.haha.very hot!haha.they say i look like terrorists.hmph!haha.then went to find uncle and played pool.then the grp started to increase.at first 5 of us.fiona and weilun came.then mattew.then corliss went off with tian shuo then came back together.haha.so the grp expanded.haha.4 couples!haha.hmm...me alone.....*sad sad*haha.but it was fun...*oops*making fun of corliss and tian shuo.haha.bashed by corliss too....haix.i was bullied there too.....haix....*where is my prince charming!*haha.everyone had theirs......*sad sad*haha.so fun....corliss got bullied by almost everyone there.haha.poor thing.but i am sure she enjoyed it.haha*oops*
*winkz*

2005-04-23T12:13:00.000+08:00

i dunno how?but i seem to have gotten over it.hmmm.haha.*winkz*is that supposed to be a good thing or wat?hmmm.haha.

2005-04-23T00:09:00.000+08:00

haix.just got back in.she locked me out of the house.great isn't it?surprised i got locked out?mm.don't ask me why?i really dunno.i hope i knew the answer too.maybe she finds it fun to do it?hmmm.according to a***, he says maybe she don't love u anymore.then maybe she didn't love me from the start at all?i dunno.cause the locking thingy is just something from the past.yes.i really don't understand why am i goin thru all these.seriously when i was young, i tot i leaving the house.believed it?i am just a seventeen year old girl.yes!a normal seventeen year old teenage.why?i already so tired of wearin the mask already.the mask in school.at home.bearing the burdens and problems at home.at school.in the 'society'?i just a normal seventeen year old teenage.loves goin out.being loved?being cared?why do i seem to be already a ninty year old grandma.why?maybe it was really my fault?but then.why am i goin thru all these.i hate it!i really hate it!can i choose to go back to ten years ago?when i was seven?can i?i am really very tired....tired.
why?i really don't wish to grumble but i can't take it anymore.why?am i always the one?haix.promised not to cry or even drop a tear anymore.i really tired....so tired.....

2005-04-19T00:34:00.000+08:00

okok.updated a few days le.haha.finally.will continue to try thou.haha.*winkz*
-construction in progress.-

recollection.

2005-04-19T00:11:00.000+08:00

31st Mar-last day of work.said good bye to all my workmates.Mmm..nice people.made some cookies and jelly for them.the cookies were my first try.heehee.so erm...not tat good i guess?but all of them seem to enjoy it so much.really happy to hear that.*glee with joy* weiling help me to 'promote' it around.haha.really very happy to see all of them enjoyin my cookies so much.haha.grace even gave me a pressie.haha.*winkz*doubt they will be able to see this.no matter wat really still very grateful to all of them for lettin me enjoy this 2 mths at work.thanks!
in the nite.went to esplande.forgot what we did before that.i think we walked citlink?hmm.suntec?haha.memory failin me.haha.but remembered we were at esplande.haha.drizzling.we sat near the stage there.then i took out ipod mini.started to sing songs and guessing songs.haha.so fun.then we started to talk bout childhood?haha.anything under the sun we can talk.haha.saw a familar backview.kl lao gong?hmm...lets not talk bout that.then after that went home and sleep.heehee.

1st april-finally relaxed!no more work.but still had wake up early.haix.fiona ask us out for a game.basketball game.at first asked kl.siyun.corliss.hui.chermaine.kenny fiona.freda.me.in the end only 6 of us.haha.played.had fun.everyone went home for a shower.meet up at 1 again.goin to eat sushi buffet.hmm*yum*haha.over there we talked and talked?haha.fiona and kl peelin siyun skin?haha.then we saw a familar back again.who else?hmmm.continue to talk for a while then went to play pool.haha.saw my friend.elton there too.surprise surprise.hmm.somemore friends with that guy.ok well.hmmm.then after that i think went home le.oh ya i think i went mac.and started naggin i guess?hmm.

2nd april-i really forgot wat i really did.but then.i remembered that we went out to look for hui pressie.bought two voucher.and erm.wad else ar?oh oh oh.haha.bought her a whitening lotion.haha.then where did we go?couldn't really remembered?maybe pool?not too sure.but then kl*was she alone?*dunno went off for tkd.but then i think siyun and i shopped on.haha.

3rd april-okok.i remember!haha.stayed at home the whole afternoon.fixing the songs in ipod mini.refused to get ready earlier.was also rainnin that day i remembered.wanted to wear blouse...but then nvm.haha.then went to meet corliss.hui.mathew?shiok.freda.meet fiona.kl+who else.siyun.as usual late.haven write card somemore.then even more late.haha.then we bought our food.and sat down and eat and talk.haha.shiok was tellin us her cold jokes?haha.we eat finish le.clara still not here.haix.she even best.ask hui whos birthday it was.haha.*muddlehead*haha.then we walk to the youth park which was so dark to cut birthday cake.everyone jumpin around like fleas.haha.mozzie.haha.finally finish the cake.mathew left.followed by shiok.then we walked to starbucks.fiona and kenny left.then hui and corliss left.haix.then the few of us dunno what to do.went to play pool.haha.uncle so nice.gave us a discount.haha.played till bout 0000?haha.took the last 65 i think.then no more bus.freda gave me a lift home.haha.went home late.haha.then home sweet home.haha.nitezzz.

2005-04-18T00:47:00.000+08:00

--under construction--
*winkz*will TRY to update it real soon.
i promise!haha.*winkz*

2005-04-07T00:04:00.000+08:00

well perhaps tat i am too naive.always believe and trust.maybe?tats what i felt.but then.i really dunno.i really sort of regretted.really.i cannot stand by my beliefs strongly.why?why am i so easily bought over?hmmm.well maybe that the life that was decided for me?i really dunno.so hot-tempered lately too.hmm.so sorry guys*is there a way to stop all this misery i shld put it this way.learn to heck care bout others' feelings?will that be able to help?hmmm.i really dunno wat to do.who can help me.maybe a fresh start may not neccessarily be bad.hmmm.

2005-03-29T11:51:00.000+08:00

270305--sunday.woke up earlier today?haha.sister need to go get badminton racket?yep she spoilt mine.goin queensway.alight at ikea.walked to queensway.on the way fiona saw me.she was in the car.haha.so fated heh?haha.then walked around to get my sister racket?bought it.it cost like 65?hmmm.not my money nvm.haha.at a corner.i happen to see a familar view?and familar shirt.haha.saw kailin and her lao gong.haha.so fated again?haha.saw fiona just.now kailin.haha.
started rainning so heavily.stuck in queensway.finally decided to take a cab to great world.want to buy my white blouse.haha.just as i stepped into great world.saw someone again.saw desy this time.haha.bought my stuff.and we took a cab home again?haha.reached home.needed to go uncle house tonite.his birthday.*although he refused to admit?*haha.eat steamboat.*yum yum*haha.then my face was so red.demi tot that i was blushin?*err*anothny kor kor tot i drank some alcohol?*err err*haix.after eatin went home.

2005-03-29T11:43:00.000+08:00

260305--whoosh!another paragraph gone?hmmm.shall just sumarise.short and sweet.
*aches everywhere!ahh!!pain!!*
*price to pay for enjoyment in sentosa?*
*woke up at 1300*
*asked siyun out.answer as usual?*
*happen to see kailin online*
*went out together.*tink*light bulb again?*
*went china town myself*
*bought twins cd and dinner home*
[_my face was so red and black looked funny.hehe.then this lady at my bus stop keep lookin at me.like i had one eye two head?like i was a alien.then she looked till she nearly walked onto the road.haha.so funny.and so fustrated.haha__]
*ZzzzZzzzzZZzZZZzzzzz*

2005-03-29T10:58:00.000+08:00

250305--mm.today went to sentosa.meetin time for me 0830.for them 0900.hehe.*winkz*but then ended the 4 of us together late.fiona was the latest.hmm.today is probably the third time i heard fiona cried over the phone?her mother went to let her father know that fiona bought alcohol.but the ridiculously her mother was the one that brought her thru the counter.*err*her father started scolding her.didn't allow her to come.her father stated a condition unless she was able to find a calsberg bottle cap?*errr errr*ok.hmmm.kneel for half an hour.then her father finally let her come.*yu guo tian qing*haha.by the time, we boarded the bus at bout 1000?hehe.then reach there.no more monorail.then the bus so crowded.then we wanted to walked.and guess wat!the map was funny.then the merlion there was blocked!argh!really sorry guys!made u people walked so far!hmm.sorry!then finally we reach at bout 1130?or 1200?then we crossed to the southern island?went into the water.was beaten by sand flies i guess?pain!ahhh!haha.we all hurried out of the water.made freda swim back.to check for sand flies?hehe.so we crossed over.haha.the condition there was better.and the tide then was so high.then the bridge went into the water.haha.played monkey with frisbee.in order not to let me get the frisbee.*i think i was the monkey hehe*she dragged me into the water.wantin to prevent me from swimmin there.haiyo.the water was so salty.went into my nose.so pain.haix.haha.but monkey was fun.hehe.played then we went to 7-eleven to buy food.haha.while siyun.corliss.fiona stayed to sun-tan.haha.came back.started eating and they drinked the alcohol*didn't know how to spell*.then they burried me into the sand.haha.no one else was willin to be burried.haix.but then it was fun.haha.i was screamin.burrying me was like killin the chicken i guess?haha.was screamin all the way.haha.but this time i must praise all of them.made the whole thing so solid.usually when i wriggle my toes the sand will fall apart.but this time it didn't.haha.of course.like fiona say.makin my desired body shape?haha.two big mount everest infront of me.covering my face.haix.*i was lying down haha*well it was so thick and solid the 'cover' tat they made?haha.i couldn't even break it when i get up.haha.it was quite fun!haha.then we continued the monkey game again.haha.then we got tired.and it was so low tide.the seabed was all black sand.kalin, fiona and corliss started to collect the living organisms.*the hermit crab?*hmmm.contained it in the alcohol bottle.then they was so lucky to find a white crab.ahh!AhhhH!screamin around.freda the brave soul caught it with her bare hands and into the bottle it goes.haha.continued lookin for a while.then went up to take a rest.and to finish up the alcohol?hmm.then i tried a sip.eee!so bitter!haha.then we started to play frisbee.it was already sun set i guess?hmmm.nice colour that the sky got.although fiona needed to reach home at six.we continued.*oops*the highest record of throwin it continously without landing on the floor.was 32 times?haha.*winkz*had a wonderful day.all became cooked lobsters.haha.we que for the bathrooms for like an hour?haix haix haix.and they were watchin LIVE discovery channel.the lizardS and the dragonfly.haiyo.they waitin for the either one of the lizards to attack the dragonfly.haha.finally bathed finish.took the bus back to harbourfront?haha.then fiona went home first?hui too.the rest of us went to pastamania for dinner.then it was home sweet home!haha.a msg to my friends who went to sentosa with me.
thank guys!i really enjoyed myself today!thank you!

2005-03-29T10:36:00.000+08:00

240305--haha.still doin some recollections.haha.can't really remember wad i did in the mornin and afternoon other than workin and slackin.haha.only remembered wad i did after work i guess.oh ya.they wanted to watch miss congen...*hehe.dunno howta spell*then i check the web for timings.who knows.today's tickets were 0850.haix.me this cheapskate person where will be willin to spend the x-tra dollar.hehe.so i asked them out lo.kailin not goin tkd.so i wanted to buy fbt short.siyun too.siyun and her shi fu needed a haircut too.we were plannin to go down to suntec so tat we can buy our stuff and they can get their hair cut.hehe.who knows.i guess i and siyun are always not fated.*the virgo and aquarius are not meant to be together*traffic jam again.so reach there late.then tot siyun was there.but she wasn't.very unusual.haha.called her.
"WAD!she was still at home.haha.had been runnin to the toilet for the past half an hour."haix.so had to make the trip to suntec myself to meet kailin and her lao gong.today.again.a light bulb.haha.meet them at citilink.he was forced by kailin to get his hair cut.but i still seriously think that he seems that he never cut his hair.haha.looks funny too.ok then shopped and walked to carrefour.then finally reached.haha.still figuring out wat size does siyun wants.make a fool of ourselves there i guess?laughin non-stop.hahaha.it was 5 mins before 10.then we walked in to giodarno to get our coloured tees.haha.bought yellow.siyun orange.kailin blue.haha.they bought their wrist band*hope thats the correct name?*hmmm.reached home at bout 11.then still need to pack the stuff for tomorrow's outin to SENtOsA.haha.

2005-03-29T10:07:00.000+08:00

VITAMIN C LYRICS"Graduation (Friends Forever)

"And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
[1] - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come
Whatever
We will still be

Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
[Repeat 1]La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeahLa, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
[Repeat 1 (3x)]

2005-03-28T14:18:00.000+08:00

great!didn't keep my promise to update my blog regularly.hehe.*oops*cause firstly very sianx.was tryin to fix the problem with my blog.made me so tired.and thinking whether to appeal or not.and wad course to appeal to.okok.i know excuses.haha.
230305--took half-day at work today.haha.so happy.haha.still thinkin wad to appeal.went down to sp[singapore polytechnic] first.thought hard whether to appeal for BIT[business information technology]in sp.had to think carefully.cause once i am accepted.i cannot reject it.mmm.didn't really like the course struture of BIT in sp.okok.after a long time.i finally decided not to appeal for it in sp.this time.it wasn't the usual 4 people.this time there was kailin.siyun.fiona.and her 2'bodyguards'i guess.hehe.chris and kenny.haha.siyun appeal for civil engineering in sp.[the only course tat she was eligible for.hmmm.]then we went down to ngee ann polytechnic.haha.fiona and her 2 friends just went there this mornin then goin back again.i came to a conclusion.finally?haha.well i would appeal for BIT in ngee ann.i would let fate decide where i shld go.i shall accept wad fate has arrange for me.temesak or ngee ann.hmmm.hope that i will be happy to accept it.and not whine bout it anymore.met geraldine koh chiat ying at ngee ann.she was also unposted.she appealed for civil engineering in both sp and np.hmmm.just hope that everyone will be happy after this.hmmm.sat at a table at the atrium for quite a long time.fiona took a nap.and siyun was sort of decidin what to take.hmmm.finally.we decided.she appeal for electrical engineering*hope that i am not wrong*hehe.finally!freed..
walked to the bus stop.want to go to town.met bernyce at the bus stop.haha.all 4 of us at the same time.shouted*not very loud*BERNyCe TONGG*haha.she was also here too appeal.hehe.she was posted to RP, biotechnology.she came down to np to appeal to try her luck too.she appeal for early childhood too.hmmm.seems like early childhood is a popular course too.haha.there was actually a guy infront of her.tot it was her bf but then it happen to be a stranger.*oops*hehe.but she of course won't wan to go to np alone.haha.she brought someone with her.haha.she ask me whether i recongnize him.haha.she brought lionel lim with her.haha.guess he is still shy as usual?he stood so far from her when she walk over to us.haha.
finally boarded the bus to clementi mrt.while nothing much happen on the bus except that they laugh at my pronounciation again for Lasalle.hehe.
reached town.went ps to eat.kailin was hungry.so went to the foodcourt to eat.finished eating.we continued to sit there and talked.and of course again.somebody would bring the topic back to *ermhemm*haha.can't really remembered what we actually talked bout.but then i knew that i used almost all my energy just for laughin.haha.after that fiona needed toreach home before 6.so she left with her two friends.i needed to get a baby pressie.haha.for jacc daughter.she gave me a cake.yep so needed to give her something.hehe.while cause of all the laughin just now.i used up almost all my energy for laughin.was so tired.first time i felt that shoppin was so tired.haix.first time!haha.bought the pressie.hurried home.was dead tired.haha.

2005-03-22T09:27:00.000+08:00

220305--great type a whole paragraph at first.then whoosh it gone!haha.forgot wat i really type le.but then.22nd was the day.the day of the release of the postings.well was posted to tp.temesak polytechnic.so far.all my other good friends were all posted to nearby.as usual leavin me alone somewhere far away.mmm.kailin of course with her lao gong in sp[singapore polytechnic].siyun was posted to rp[republic polytechnic].fiona posted to sp.[singapore polytechnic]fiona as usual not satisfied with the results as she wasn't posted to early childhood in ngee ann polytechnic.siyun satisfied with the course but not the school.whereas for me the course ok.school ok.location of school not ok.haix.too far.so this time round.kailin was the lucky one.when i first knew my results.i didn't know how to react to it.i wasn't excatly too sad or too happy.i was actually confused.lost in my own world?hmmm.didn't wan to travel. so far for 3 years.haix.but then the course was ok.my interest i guess.how?i really dunno wad to do?haix.
after work.asked siyun and kailin out.haha.the four of us met at habourfront.[wondering why izzit 4?hehe.thinkin carefully lo.*winkz*]went for a drink.[a coffee drink.hehe.]at starbucks.siyun and i didn't know how to pronounce the drink and don't know how to order.but ended we still sort of embarrased ourselves.hehe.then great siyun tot took my hand as the coffee and poured chocolate on my hand.haha.we sat down there and chat as usual.still thinkin bout wat to appeal for.haha.we can talk bout anything under the sun.but then there is one topic tat we would talk about i guess.the topic is the *dirty topic*haha.they were talkin bout this girl with her "deep drain."haha.haiyo.then met zhuang.samm.madd.they were also posted to different places.mmm.guess all good friends will have to part one day.maybe this is fate?zhuang in rp.samm in np.madd not posted.yep.so we continued sitting there till bout 9 i guess?shop for a while.then went home.
at home--haha.ask mummy whether i should appeal or not.very lost and confused.well.she didn't really said much.she lets me decide.well.confused again.stayed up till 2am to read the details of the courses again.to make sure that i was ready to take that course.

2005-03-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

210305/2350--ok great the postings still won't appear.
*sometimes i really feel so stupid.i really don't understand why am i doin all these?why?i seriously don't understand or shld i say i can't find a reason/excuse to explain this.what am i doin it for?myself?maybe?*
*fate is the one that one's life.wat has fate got for me?why do i feel so miserable sometimes?why do i always have to think so much?why?there are too many why-s i wuld like to ask.but there is no answer to it.am i tryin to escape from reality or am i tryin to solve it?*
*mMmm.maybe i shld really change.[c][h][a][n][g][e].*
*well tomorrow is the results of the JAE.really hope tat i wuld get into somewhere that i wuld be happy in.to the rest too!*prays real hard**
*really appreciated ur help friends.thank you so much!*
-jess*

at work.

2005-03-21T13:18:00.000+08:00

210305/1325--just woke up from the sleep.haha.eaten lunch le.haha.so irritated with the postin.haiyo.it just won't work.dunno wats wrong.cannot hear my ying wei ai music too.haiyo.hopefully it will work well soon.actually tot of a "big" question.but then forgot bout it again.once again.haha.well i really think tat this whole blogging thing is gonna die out soon.but then don't think for my case.i will continue to blog.but then it wuld seems a bit tat i would be talkin to myself.but then never mind.have always been doin some self-entertainment thou.haha.*tryin real hard now to think*oh!
-*why can't one be truthful to another?*why must one hide their thoughts?*isn't bein truthful better than lettin one know the truth themselves?*isn't it always better to know the truth earlier and told by the person themselves?*although it might really hurt the person.*but wouldn't it be less hurtful than lettin them figure out the truth themselves?*

2005-03-21T10:50:00.000+08:00

argh!my postings cannot be seen!argh.tried for the whole nite and the whole morning le.haiyo.dunno wads wrong with it.haha.tryin to stay patience with it.hmmm.*patience*haha.but nevertheless, i think i better still continue to post.well wants to keep a record of my daily happenings.just hope tat it will start to work well soon.haha.
200305--haha.woke up only at 1.30pm.haha.*yawnz*haha.*oops*.had a really nice sleep.well.can't believed it myself too.woke up so late.stayed at home the whole day.*wow*haha.so unusual for me.haha.well.didn't do much yesterday.so not so long of an essay.haha.
but then, realised some reasonin last night
-*when one have it, they don't treasure it*when they lose it, one regrets*it is usually the case whereby it is too late to regret*when one have it, they want more of it*when they want more of it, they want even more*cause one is never contended with wat one have*
-*friends are part of my life*but i might not be part of their life*don't depend on them too much*cause when i realise the truth which usually hurts*i will go back to square one*feelin so lost once again*
-*fate has brought us together as friends*we should learn to cherish this fate*but learn to let it go when u know it's time to do so.*not hold on to it and refuse to let it go*

2005-03-20T22:41:00.000+08:00

argh!why cannot see all my postings?what happen?please don't do this to me!argh!pls...

yesterday.190305

2005-03-20T01:31:00.000+08:00

haha.kailin and siyun came over this morning.haha.bought breakfast for me.[thanx guys!]*yummmy*haha.then watch the tape for bout a hour then set off for MOE.haha.to pay our JAE registration fee.*$7million*haha.meet up with fiona there and wanted to head off to expo.then...fiona tot of callin her friend*u believe*haha.kenny to come along.haha.then she called him to come down asap.haiyo.duh!of course was late.just simply don't understand.are we fated to always wait for fiona's guy friends.they are always late.haiyo.hmm.of course fiona tried to help her friend.but then...he was still quite late in the end.waited inside the mrt station.but at least all 4 of us were talkin crap.haha.sort of enjoyed it but then...of course not the part where by the 2 of them teasing me.haha.*shld understand wat i referring to rite?*haha.kailin finally meet up with her lao gong[she miss him so much kk?even 'slap'fiona cause her friend was late and made her lao gong wait so long.haha.and made her wait so long.cannot see her lao gong.haha.]finally we reach tanah merah interchange.haha.waited for the train for so long.started to talk crap again.our topic this time was.*ahem**NC-16*haha.not very suitable to say.haha.then started laughin AGAIN.haha.reach expo.there wasn't much things to our likings.haix.fiona bout a bottle and a swim cap.haiyo.abit waste my time but then ok nvm.haha.then we decided to go changi airport.haha.they tot i wanted to go to the post office there.but then i did not.haha.we spend or i shld say waste some time there thinkin wat to do.then decided to walk out to starbucks for a drink.haha.no place for the six of us.so walked on and decided to eat ICE-CreaM.*yeah!*haha.ended up eatin the 3-for 3 march madness promotion.then too full then decided not to eat ice cream.haha.*diao*haha.defeats the purpose of goin in there.haha.soo tired sleep in the train.but then...although my ears are stuff with two earphones.and tryin to sleep.i could stil hear fiona laughter...haha.*muHahahahahahHaHa*haha.
then after that dunno wat fiona and kailin talkin bout keep laughin soo loudly till everyone look at them.but then of course they continued.haha.then fiona laugh until she stomachache.haha.then she squat down.haha.then realised that kailin did not zip her jeans.haha.**oops**haha.then we reached town.[went around singapore in a day]haha.while i was in the post office.fiona and siyun disappeared.haha.guess where they went.haha.went lookin for a toilet.fiona wanna *shit*haha.the consquences of laughin too much i guess.haha.so funny.haha.then after *shiting*haha.she went off with her mum.we walked down to plaza.shopped around a while.then sianx le.haha.then we decided to go somewhere else again.haha.then i started blah-ing non-stop.made siyun so irritated.haha.but i cannot stop.haha.so i blah-ed till centre point.then heeren.then taka.haha.then went on the bus.haha.still blah-ing.haha.*diao*haha.reach home tired.but then quite sort of enjoyed today.haha.*went around singapore*haha.i sure am talkin too much again.but then...its okay.don't care.haha.well thanks u guys for today!for contributing to my memory bank of happiness.thank you!haha.*winkz*

haha.something i realise today.haha.
*love can really change someone.*
-jess*

oops!

2005-03-18T21:45:00.000+08:00

haha.oh ya forgot to add some stuff down.haha.i know after tat long essay of mine.i am still able to say some more stuff.haha.but then can't blame.i am like tat long-winded.haha.naggy.born with it.if not why i am always called ah ma.haha.see.haha.well i wuld like to say a BIG thanK yOu to all my friends.well my primary school friends.secondary school friends.internet friends.and definitely my teachers!haha.thank you everyone.for playing a role in my life. thank you so much!haha.
*winkz*
-jess*

2005-03-18T21:38:00.000+08:00

haha.was a good girl today.came home early.haha.reason?cause no one goin out with me haha.haix.stayin at home on a friday nite.haix.no choice.who else can i blame but myself?haha.well.i seem to be taggin around people blogs too much.and real rubbish and crappy.
haix.maybe i shld really change.just keep quiet is the best.will try to![will someone let me know?]haha.well.planned tomorrow schedule le.but then wonder will it always changes due to sudden circumstances which always happens.so hopefully tomorrow will go well for me.*hopefully*haha.ask a couple of sec 2 friends today whether interested in a class outing?
most were quite excited bout it.real happy to hear that.haha. well talk to jasmine.she tot i couldn't remember her le.how can tat ever happen?haha.i always tot is people forgettin me and finding me a nusiance.but then she actually said tat.wah!haha/shld say quite happy to hear tat.haha.of course i could remember u jasmine.[if u happen to read this]teresa and u always standing at the back of the class durin morning assembly.esp sec 1.haha.cow and chicken!haha.will always remember u!haha.and i still remember u used to be the one that run away from ur duties.haha.always making me scream!*ahhHHhh*haha.i remember i used to hate secondary school life.always prefered primary school life.but then.now i realised it is primary school life is part of my beautiful childhood whereas scondary school life is the one tat made me grow up from a girl to wat i am now.so i will always cherish this two memories.well and this is to all my friends out there.i will remember u people for the rest of my life.no matter how much we quarrel or had how much unhappiness we had between each other.all this unhappiness as build a stronger relationship between all of us.all of u were once and will always be part of my life.ok?haha.
friends always*
-jess*

2005-03-18T09:01:00.000+08:00

haix.today forgot to bring my phone.
argh!although no one contact me.
but then i still feel so lost without
phone.haix.how?haix haix haix.

yesah!

2005-03-17T15:43:00.000+08:00

haha.so happy i got my pay le!yeah!haha.
kailin[if u happen to read]haha.i understand
le.they deducted 50cent from my pay too.
haha.*yeah!got my pay le.can go and eat le!
haha.eat crab and sushi le.haha.!so happy.
although quite little.but then at least i have
some money.haha.yeah!so happy!

...continued

2005-03-17T13:47:00.000+08:00

haha.i forgot to say.
those days whereby i hav to
get everyone to do their duties!
Argh!but mostly everyone will run
away!haha.thanks to my buddies
who always stayed back to wait for
me!thank you!and for helpin me
sweepin the floor!Thank You!

2005-03-17T13:31:00.000+08:00

haha.finally the saint anne 2 blog is up.haha.
seeing wad ruby and siyun has put up.
really missed those days.thoses days
where we were *quarreling*,
[class.t-shirt]
where we were *cheering*,
[wininn captain ball games]
where we were celebrating
[miss kingsley and mr heng birthday]
where we were *preparing*
[project work]
where we were *tricking teachers*
[mr vincent heng birthday]
where we were *complaining*
[about 1 saint rose]
where we were being *scolded*
[miss kingsley when we couldn't ans the little women questions]
where we were being *'funny'*
[spraying impulse on mr old heng]
where we were being *tricked*
[by mr vincent heng(april fools joke)]
where we were *upset*
[the first time we heard tat mr ng was our form teacher]
where we were *amazed*
[mr vincent heng 's mascara]
where we were *punished*
[by mr leslie]
where we were......
always be a class.
A class of many differences.
but unique.
Really missed those days!

thank you!

2005-03-16T21:51:00.000+08:00

friends.thanx alot.really appreaciated
all thoses 'praises' that u people gave
me.the feeling is great.haha.-D really
thanks alot!-jess*

welcome.

2005-03-16T17:01:00.000+08:00

hello.welcome to my blog.haha.
hope tat u will like it.haha.
leave a msg for me wor!haha.
-jess*